dear babes

dear babes,

today i am sitting here, listening to one of you sing in your crib while you fall asleep, and the other is asleep on my lap. there is something so special about the innocence that you both carry around with you today and everyday. your laughter and smiles are still going even though the world today seems dark, and dreary. i am so grateful that i get to be around this pure joy everyday.

but i can't help the thoughts of fear that keep drifting in from the back of my mind. donald trump was elected president today, and it has made people scared. that fear is turning to hatred, anger and cruelty. it makes me sad. really sad.

more than the sadness and fear that i feel, it has given me determination. determination to do my best to teach you all about love and kindness. so as you grow you will be able to have unconditional love and kindness for everyone you meet. i want you to have kindness, empathy, respect, compassion and love for everyone. it shouldn't matter their views or beliefs. just to have goodness for everyone.

i'm not saying that you can't have anger or feel fear. i think it is good for us to experience those feelings, and will help us grow. but don't let those feeling turn into cruel words, thoughts or actions. no matter what people do around you, it is up to you how you will react. choose kindness and love. anger is easy, but having love for someone who has done you wrong is hard. that love will make you happy and i want you to be happy.

every good decision you make will help you become closer to the Savior. ultimately that is my goal. to do everything i can as your mother so you will know right from wrong and want that closeness to Him. if i can teach you to love and forgive the way He did i know you will be happy. and having my children happy would be the greatest gift i could get as a mother.

so in this world that is becoming more evil and entitled everyday, don't be afraid to standout. i know it will be hard. but decide what your standards are, what you believe in and stand up for them. don't believe the mean things that people will say. because believe me, they will say mean things. but chose where you stand, who you stand with and never never let the 'mean' in. that will only bring heartache. be strong and carry goodness with you.

if everyone lived like this, i know the world would be a different place. but it isn't. so please be an example. stand up for yourself. stand up for you believes. be courageous. and emulate Christ. i'm trying to set a good example for you to follow. i know that i am not perfect, but i am trying. if you can do the best you can and teach your children the same one day, i know your influences will make an impact on the people you come in contact with.

the world needs more of this little babe innocence in it, that i am so blessed to see everyday with you. i know kindness will help bring that to others. you will never regret being kind.

love you forever,

mom

Today's {Gratitude}

Today I am grateful for sunshine.Winter in Rexburg is a rough time, and today I was so happy to see the sun. It made me feel like summer will be here sooner. Doubt it will, but it was still exciting to think. I  was especially grateful to have it hitting and warming me up at work.

Thank you Sunshine, for making today great! :)

who am i...?

This semester I am taking an Interpersonal Communications class. I have really been enjoying this class, we have been taking about how we figure out who we are by what others tell us or how we go and compare ourselves to others. Which is an interesting thing to think about. Our latest assignment was given to us Friday and our teacher told us that we were going to need to come to class Monday prepared to talk about who we are for three minutes. It couldn't be just the basics. He wanted us to dig deep and really figure out who we are.

This was a really hard assignment for me actually. I have always felt like I have known who I was, but having to tell people who you are really makes you think. We started presenting today in class, I didn't have a change to go because we ran out of time. But it was so interesting to me to see how people viewed themselves. I feel like this project wasn't necessarily for us to let people know who we are, but more for ourselves. So we could take some time and just focus on ourselves. In a world that has so much going on, it is nice to take some time and remember who we are, that we all have worth, we are all so important, and can do amazing things.

But doing this assignment I think I did figure out more of who I am... 

I am a daughter to amazing parent, who love, support, and push me to be all that I can be. 

I am a wife. I get to spend everyday with my best friend. He is always there for me, loves me, makes me laugh, smile, and anything I would ever need. I don't know what I would do without him in my life.

I am a sister. Some might think that having 4 sister would suck. And yes

sometimes they are crazy, but they have helped me become who I am today and would never

trade them for anything. It is nice to always have a best friend around.

I am a friend. I love to be with people and have so many great memories with 

amazing people that I have been blessed with in my life. 

{this pictures makes me laugh every time}

I am an aunt. I have the most adorable niece and nephews. They are a 

blessing in my life and make me want to be better for the day when I have children.

I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

I know this gospel is true. 

I always thought that I had a testimony until I had to go through a trial that made that testimony so firm.

My friend in high school was killed in a car accident. It was so hard for me because

I didn't understand why she had to die. It just didn't make any sense. 

It was so hard for me but because I went through it helped me to build that testimony I had 

been searching for. 

Since this I have had many other experiences, so I can say without a doubt that I know

this gospel is true and could not be happier to have it in my life.

I know the Atonement is real.

I love to serve people. I would rather give than receive.

I will never give up on anyone.

I like to see people's potential and want them to see it too.

I am stubbon and will do the opposite of what I am told to do.. 

I am emotional, and cry... a lot.

I like to try new things.

I am scared of being bad a something.

I am scared of failing.

I am adventurous.

I am insecure.

I am goofy and fun.

I love to laugh.

I can sometimes be a "blonde"

I can take a joke.

I am confident

I am a shopper.

I am outgoing.

I am generous.

I am paranoid. Thanks Criminal Minds. 

I am spontaneous.

I get annoyed.

I am loved.

I am happy.

I am a daughter of God.

I would not change who I am, who I am with or anything about my life. 

Because it is perfect and I don't need anything more than what I already have been given.